About 30 Sep 2018
What do i think about God?
Who can create a universe? That is not a human work.
Who can offer me life and even life eternal?
I only want life in truth. Even when it hurts.
If my God can not bring me into a meaningful fellowship with peace for all, my doubt starts.
What I am ashamed of before God:
That I know so little how to love and care for a few things.
Where I struggle with the many times I hurt people around me
Where I struggle with my laziness and excuses.
Where I struggle with accepting people around me as they are today.
What I am afraid for before God:
For my unbelief and doubts
For the words that by times come out of my mouth
For my failure to build unity with even a few people around
For my self-pity and self justification
What I value in God?
He has given me the opportunity of life
He has given me freedom. He does not reject me when I make mistakes, even when I hurt my brothers and sisters.
He gives me trust in life. And that far before I am perfect.
Whatever fails in my life, He will not fail me.
He wants good things for my life
Where I struggle with God?
When I have to wait while being ineffective
When my prayers for healing of people are not answered
When I can not find Him in my fellow people
Where I can not find ways to fight my pride and my character faults
Where His church is divided
Where I see different religions in the world
Where I miss examples to follow - actually I want to follow Jesus with other disciples
Where I do not see desire for a good future for all