I.M. Lonesome 14 May 2021
It is holiday time. I need a secure place, without Corona. And I found one.
It is somewhat isolated. I managed to make a fire and to find a hiding place to sleep at night.
Admitted, it is a bit lonely. There are no friends and there is no family. And to make things worse, there is no bakery or supermarket to purchase my breakfast. What shall I do?
I check my phone. There is no signal. I try the Internet. Nothing. The battery of my phone is still charged. I play a game. The next morning I wake up with a hungry feeling and an empty battery. Life sucks. Is this my holiday?
It could be a frightening dream. Perhaps my home with Millet in Eindhoven, the Netherlands is not so bad.
I am listening in those days to pod-casts on OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder). It is about hidden anxieties and discovering what those could be. Interestingly, it is not about things long ago. It is always about things which I fear and which 'could' happen today.
OCD usually occurs to very nice persons. Those nice persons believe they can not express their hidden thoughts. They would shock the world around them. Learning to face their 'fears' and to share them perhaps with others brings tremendous relieve.
It sounds simple, but it is an enormous effort to overcome my fears.
Father God, I ask for courage to face my hidden fears. I pray for those who are lonely.