Poverty: Disappointment 30 July 2020
Yesterday I wrote: check where you disappoint yourself and others. I did. There are of course a few things where I fall short in my own opinion. I am certainly not disappointed in everything. My interest is where disappointments about my own actions builds bondage, inaction. I am not saying that my disappointment about what others think or did, is irrelevant, but I can not affect their behaviour.
It is not easy to change my own behaviour. I can however forgive and accept my self and others. I can give up my frustrations.
Disappointments about Self
I just name some. I do not judge the severity.
- My procrastination.
- Inability to connect to neighbours.
- Unfinished projects (lack of beautifying).
- Slow to choose among options.
- Inability to build bigger things.
- When I talk too long and see how it annoys others.
- Lack of effectiveness in presenting my cases on my website. I like the daily writing.
- Lack of clear direction.
- My procrastination. Ineffectiveness.
- Where I hurt or offend others.
- Forgotten friendships.
- Making problems too broad and big.
- Lack of trust in others.
- I have a strong feeling that my bondage/inaction and disappointments are closely related.
- If I lower my unrealistic expectations - towards myself and others - this certainly will reduce my disappointments.
- Perhaps I have 'no' idea how disappointed I am.
- I am very sure. I am not only disappointed. I have enjoyed so many things in my life. There are few things I really regret (I just lack wisdom).
- I could be more honest and clear about some of my disappointments. No exaggerating. No self pity. No blame.